Sometimes it's just too much. Sometimes I'm just on the verge on taking the car and barging in and taking what I want.
It's absolutely ridiculous.
I am absolutely ridiculous.
There should be a law against someone so pathetic. It started when I was 15/16. Nearly gone around 18, completely gone at 19. Came back a little bit when I was 21, I think. Accelerated to something much much more when I was 22, I think, after my calculations. It is pathetic. I feel almost embarrassed to just writing this.
I just wish someone would see it, and help me. Because I can't manage it myself. I don't know what to do. I don't know how. Absolutely pathetic.